"The Other Half"

 I hear some of my closest friends saying that they can't wait to find their "other half" or call their partner their "missing piece"-  this "other half " business seems completely ridiculous and in some ways undermining to me- they are a whole person with or without their partner; with their own body, their own soul and their own mind with all of the elements that come with that. I have never thought of them as less than a whole person whether they were in a relationship or not.

They have slowly become dependent on the love and company of others and in doing so, have lost their own identity- or at least their own perception of it. They have forgotten that it is possible for them to be alone, to eat alone, to sleep alone and in doing so have forgotten who they are, they struggle to find their inspiration, to grow, to dream, to build their own beliefs because they are now trying to share these things with another person. They forget that even without their partner, they are still a whole. And because of this new found need for companionship they no longer recognise love for what it is and they can never be sure that it is love again because they are no longer sure of themselves.

They slowly come to believe that they are no longer responsible for themselves, that they have to love themselves because they are too busy trying to find someone to save them that they no longer need to take responsibility for their own lives. They have this idea that their lives are like some YA romance novel and that their lives will magically get better when they meet a boy. They don't realise that a love like there's can be one sided and that they deserve better than someone they have to beg to stay- that laying in bed with someone who they had to break their ribs to fit into their heart will not make them less lonely.

But to say all of this without some form of explanation would leave a bitter taste and the impression that I am just lonely and jealous- but that assumption is so far from the truth.

I cannot wait to fall in love. To find someone who sees the dark and twisty roads that are in my head and still walks down them because they know that if they do- there is a sunny field just beyond the horizon. While my friends talk of butterflies and fireworks I will be living burning stars and supernovas- they will describe surprise trips to the country with mild enjoyment while I think of how I was crying with laughter in a supermarket at 2AM. They will relish in the mundane while I think of how we are ice and fire- your warmth melting the frozen parts of me while my kiss soothes your hot head. They settle for comfort while we push each other- take each other to the very limits without ever crossing the line; with a love like an artist has for his paints- their love will seem lukewarm while ours burns my lips with the gentlest of kisses.

I can't wait to be slightly drunk and watching you from our bed while you stand on the balcony at 1AM, thinking of your future. I wont have to ask if I'm in it because I will be comfortable enough in myself to know that even if I am not I would still have my own life to live- but I will still hope, because I am so in love with you.

I don't have to go searching for my "other half" because I have faith that the universe will bring me what I need when the time is right and until that time comes- I am enough of a person to not need someone else. I don't need another half because I am already a whole.

With all of my love,

Georgia x

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16 Things I Learned while I was 16

It's been a week since I turned 17 so I thought today would be the perfect day to share the 16 things I learned while I was 16..

1) Some people just aren't meant to stay. That does not diminish the time you spent together or mean it is no longer of value, it simply means that you have grown and that with that it is time for you to move on and find someone that compliments the new you.

2) Not every "Sorry" deserves an "It's okay" in response. Telling someone "It's okay" suggests that they can mistreat you again.

3) Life is too short and difficult to spend it with negative or boring people. Surround yourself with people who both make you happy and push you, they make the journey easier and the load lighter.

4) Stop being so negative towards yourself. You are beautiful, your body is a source of life- simply the packaging of a beautiful soul- it's appearance does not define you.

5) Don't swim oceans for people that wouldn't even step over a puddle for you.

6) Some relationships just were not meant to be. Some people are just not meant to be together; the realisation of this may hurt, but the pain will pass and you will move on.

7) Make sure to tale the time to show your family and friends how much you appreciate them; they are there with you through the good and the bad, the least you could do is show that you are grateful.

8) It's okay to be sad sometimes; it's okay to be sad ,in some way, all of the time. What is not okay is when you let the sadness consume and control you.

9)You have to respect yourself enough to leave anything that does not make you happy and is no longer helping you grow. Do not limit yourself for the sake of others.

10) Many boys will tell you that you're special. Only give your heart to the one who makes you feel that way.

11) You cannot let other people make your decisions for you. This is your life; you have to control it.

12) Not everything has to be perfect. Some things were made to be messy.

13) The small things really are the most important.

14) There is a difference between kissing someone for the sake of it and kissing someone because it's what your heart wants. Only do the latter.

15) Life is too short to pretend to hate things. Being a negative person does not make you mature and edgy, it makes you boring.

16) And finally the past and the mistakes you have made do not define you. You have to forgive yourself before you can truly move on. It's difficult, but not impossible.

With love, 

Georgia x

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The One Where I Make A Come-Back

Hello Again!

I feel like first and foremost I owe you guys an apology. I seemingly left and forgot about you all without warning or reason- I promise that wasn't the actual reason for my disappearing act, but still I'm sorry.

Over the past few months I've had a lot going on which has meant that I have had no time to write- or create- anything and as the weeks drew on without any form of artistic release- my inspiration and motivation seemed to fade. First my mum got badly injured and so I had to take the role of a secondary carer to my brother as well as helping her and my dad in countless other tasks that she would normally be responsible for, I saw my favourite band on Earth play Wembley Arena, I returned to my job and have barely stopped working since, then came my exams (in case you guys didn't know I'm in my first year of college and just finished my AS exams) and all of the work I had to put into those and then to top it off aspects of my personal seemed to be constantly crumbling. All of these things just overwhelmed, leaving me with no motivation or inspiration to create. So once again, I'm sorry I left for so long- I never intended to be gone for as long as I was.

But now I'm back with my fire to create and nothing to drag me away again. Now that exams are over and my life is back to it usual organised mess I can go back to my passions, my outlets without having to worry about anything else. This blog is going to be changing and moving quick, so here is my little plan:

• I am aiming to upload 2-3 times a week , work and college depending, however I make no promises of when these uploads will be.

• I am going to be posting on all of my social media more frequently, they have appeared very barren as of late. 

• I am now going to be opening my Tumblr to you guys as well so you can stay up to date with all of the things I'm interested in.

• My SnapChat will also be available so you can see my obviously thrilling life as it happens.

• And finally my content here will be changing slightly- I am going to slowly bring in some more lifestyle/ beauty posts and just posts I am genuinely interested in to break up all of my creative writing, So every week there will now be one creative piece, one lifestyle piece and then the occasional pieces surrounding things that are interesting to me at the time.  

Thank you for sticking with me, but here's to the future. I hope you guys have been doing well in my absence and are excited for the re-birth of WholeLotOfHeart, 

With love, 

Georgia x

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#DearMe

Dear 12 year old Me,

I’m not sure where this is going to go, but first off well done. You have just moved away from some of the most negative people in your life and I promise that will do nothing to you but make your life better.

I know these past few years have been hard, and it feels like the world is against you- but, I promise you, it’s not. You are still so young and have so much to learn before you will truly appreciate the life you have, and that isn’t your fault.

You are going through one of the darkest times I’ve seen you in and although I can’t promise you it’s going to get better anytime soon, I promise you that one day it will. And when it does, things will be so great that you almost forget how bad you felt in the past. The only thing that I can give to you now is some words of advice:

Firstly, you think you know everything- you don’t. Accept when you are wrong and learn from your mistakes. It’s the only way you will grow.

You’re going to go through some things in the next few years that you shouldn’t have to deal with at such a young age. Don’t be afraid to ask for help and support, and definitely do not deny those things to the people who ask for them. The people you surround yourself with now will be with you for years to come, through the worst of times and the best.

You are going to meet some truly amazing people in a couple of years. Plan ahead and don’t build your walls up so high; it’ll save you a lot of time and will help you to make some of the best friends you could ever imagine having.

Don’t be afraid to sever some ties. Some of the people you are surrounding yourself with are holding you back and making your journey a hundred times harder. Don’t be ashamed to let go of relationships that aren’t good for you.

Don’t put so much pressure on yourself. You are your own biggest critic and trust me when I say that in the long run, the things you are stressed out about now will have no impact on you in a few year time. It’s okay to be a perfectionist, but perfection isn’t always necessary.

Put faith in something, a huge wait will be lifted from your shoulders when you realise that there is something greater having an influence on your life. You may not believe in God, but believe in a higher power- even if it is as simple as fate.

Practice your art more. Don’t quit your music lessons. Do another play. Don’t let that passion fade away.

Love yourself. Your life is much too busy to waste time looking at your imperfections. You will still see them in the mirror for years to come, but there are so many other things you could be doing instead of wasting time hating yourself.

Spend more time with your family and your friends. I know you would rather spend your time alone, but trust me- you can’t make amazing memories to look back on if you never leave your room.

Hold on to that fire you have- it’s one of the best things about you. You may be stubborn and impatient and having that fire burning in you may mean that you’re a little too argumentative - but that fire is also the fuel for your passion and that stubbornness will get you to some pretty great places.

Stop swimming oceans for people who wouldn’t step over a puddle for you. This is one of your worst features. You may think it will aid you in building and holding on to relationships; but all it really does is make people think that they can walk all over you.

Say ‘Yes’ to more things. Some of the opportunities that you are offered will give you the chance to make some amazing memories and to have some great experiences. Some of your biggest regrets will come from being too afraid to take a chance.

And finally, don’t push people away. Things are going to get harder before they get better, you are going to need as many people fighting in your corner as you can get.

Love,

16 year old You

xx

Drunk Words

People underestimate the truth behind the statements a drunk person comes out with. They assume that because a person has had one too many drinks, that a person’s thoughts become less genuine- that they’re just another side effect of the alcohol. But that’s not always the case.

Sure, alcohol removes the filter between a person’s brain and a person’s mouth does mean that they tend to talk crap, but that also means that they are also likely to say the things that they’re too afraid to say sober. I've seen people reveal their deepest secrets, confess their feelings for someone and make life changing decisions, all whilst they were intoxicated. When the rooms spinning, it’s a bit difficult to concentrate on what comes out of your mouth. There are no boundaries when you've had a drink, no fear, no anxiety; it’s a blessing and a curse.

They may be honest, but a drunk person also forgets why they were hiding things in the first place- sometimes they tell secrets that aren't there’s to give away or say things better left unsaid. They forget what they say has an impact on whoever may be listening- whether it means that they get hurt or they are just left with a big secret to keep. Drunken words can be dangerous- there’s a lot of power in the thoughts of a drunk person, once that filter has been taken away, only the truth is left.

Alcohol may have its setbacks, the morning after sucks and it has the capability to ruin a life- but you must admit, it’s the perfect way to find out the truth. 

We Need Feminism

“Why do we even need feminism?”

There’s only one way to answer a question like that.

We need feminism because the bra strap of a 13 year-old makes her 45 year old maths teacher uncomfortable. We need feminism because when my 7 year old cousin came home with a black eye, the school excused it by saying “boys will be boys”. We need feminism because there are countries where young girls are mutilated for the crime of being born a woman. We need feminism because women are still objectified by men and treated as prizes in order to demonstrate dominance. We need feminism because people still believe that a woman’s appearance is more important than any other of her qualities. We need feminism because young girls are shot for trying to obtain an education. We need feminism because trans-women are still being told that they aren't “really women”. We need feminism because the most offensive thing you could tell a child is that they are “like a girl”. We need feminism because gender roles are still forced upon us. We need feminism because every day young girls are being married to men three times their age. We need feminism because girls are constantly forced into competition with one another. We need feminism because young girls are still being solved into the sex and slavery trade. We need feminism because women are judged for the same activities that men are praised for.

I am aware of how privileged I am. I am a white, cis-gendered; heterosexual from a middle class background in a first world country- I am extremely lucky. I have never been abused for my skin colour, or the people I love- I have never gone hungry- I have never been threatened by societies expectations of me. However I am a woman, which means that I am at a disadvantage in the world’s patriarchal society. However because of all of the other attributes I have on my side, I am not faced with the worse end of the bargain and because of these advantages in the first world many other people are convinced that “we don’t need feminism”. And to some extent they’re right, in the society I live in I am not worse off- I can get an education, I am not forced into marrying an older man and I am not threatened with FGM daily.

However there are women who are threatened with these things. There are women who are killed for defending their basic rights as human beings. There are trans-gendered women who can’t even use the bathroom designated to women. Girls are turned into sex objects and forced into industries that promote their sexualisation. But these women don’t have a position to voice their problems; they aren't at as high an advantage as women like myself and many of you. Why would you waste that advantage by not fighting for you fellow females and their rights to the benefits that we have? These women don’t have the platform that we have. By fighting the problems we are faced with like the objectification, health and rape of women we are able to slowly raise awareness to the sexism of our society and the patriarchy we live under and once that has been accomplished we can apply this on a much wider, more revolutionary way. We need to fix the immediate problems in order to gain the power to fix the global problem.

We must follow in the footsteps of Maya Angelou, of Virginia Woolf, of Malala Yousafzai. These incredible women have given us a spark, a starting point, a platform for change and now we must use it. 

Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time I lived for fairytales.

I would stay up until midnight reading story books- coveting them like diamonds- drinking in the promises of magic, princes and a happily ever afters. My life was lived waiting for the twist in my tale, the magic spell that would push me into a whole new world with some funny words and a magic carpet ride. I couldn’t wait to escape to the royal ball, where I could wear a beautiful dress and dance with the man of my dreams.

I thought I found it once. I found a boy with a sparkling smile and a smouldering expression that could make me melt in seconds. He promised me the world so I spent months, years chasing him on his white horse- waiting for him to whisk me away to Neverland. But it slowly dawned on me that this Beast would never become a Prince, and that no fairy godmother could fix the mess I was in. I was lost in the woods, with no cottage for sanctuary and no huntsman to come to the rescue.

I don’t believe in fairytales anymore- there will be no happily ever after for me.